been sick

30 followers, WTF? Thank you so much, can't still believe someone would ever follow me. :D I'm blessed.

Sorry for not posting before now, but I have been sick, some flu thing I think. But I'm okey today, that means that I haven't could stick to my new dietplan. I have not gain, or lost in weight. I have actually not eaten so much, but the only thing I wanted was candy. And I never ever eats candy, but I did the last three days.Today I got my period, so there's my answer why it only was candy I wanted. I feel so fat right know, and it realy hurts in my stomach and back. I hate to have my periode!!!
I can live in this body anymore, not when it's so disgusting and fat.
I need do some changes know! It can not continue in this way.
I wanna be strong, I have to be thin. It's the only way to my happiness.
I have decided not to drink alcohol anymore, there are too many calories and what makes it good for? And sweets and fast food, it's a no go! I must be strong..

My best childhood friend, Anna, called me yesterday. Her grandmother died yesterday morning, so I have to go too her funeral at saturday. It's so sad, she was such a sweet old lady.
All the snow is finally gone, it makes me so happy. But it's still very cold. I need summer, please let it be may/june.

Hope your all doing great, thanks for your coments girls. <3