wednesday

Okey..?
I didn't eat at all from tuesday 11.30am to wednesday (today) 11.50am. So it is a 24 hour fast, I'm feeling so happy!! I wasen't hungry at all. And my BF ate dinner right in my face, and I could resist it. It so fucking good. Now, I just have to resist eating lunch at school. It is my big weakness! It so quiet and cozy, eating lunch with the classmates. I don't no what else to do, when everybody else are eating??.. Some good advice?

I was with matt today, (the guy from my class), with 2 others from our class. Before the others came we were alone for an hour I think, and it was not awkward, like I thought it would be. we were talking about school stuffs, and him being a playstation3 geek, and he tried to teach me how to juggle, (I really don't now why we were talking about juggling, but it was fun). Seriously, he is becoming more and more sweet. The craziest thing is that,
Yesterday I were dreaming about him, I dreamed that he pulled me towards him and kissed me. And the worst thing was, that my BF was fucking sleeping next to me that night. I am glad it only was a dream, because I wouldn' disrespect my BF that way. I truly respects him, and I don't think he deserves me, he deserves a much better girlfriend. One who does not dream about other guys, they think are sweet.
I don't know what is happening with me, why I'm thinking this way. I try not to think about Matt in ways other than a friend, but I can't help it. I can even not get him away from my daydream! WTF..
My laptop can't play movies, so Matt has promised me to install a program he has, tomorrow. SO I'm going home to him again. Nothing will happen because he knows that I am in a relationship.