Today I was huge binging, and I really could not get enough!! I hate myself now! It can't be right that I have to binge. Thank god that I could purge hopefully I got the all up again. Really don't wanna gain weight..
Tomorrow I finally have to see my BF, i really really miss him. I haven't seen him for 13 days. I just can't wait! But I hope we don't have to eat together, I can eat in front of him.
Soon I get my own little place, looking forward to it happens in the weekend, or maybe first monday. But It's gonna be so fucking fantastic, then I can fast or purge whenever I will! I will be so (hopefully) skinny!! :D
It's soon new year and I have to get some goals for 2011 !! I'm thinking.
stupid, stupid binging. its so weird how some days we have so much control and others that control is out the window. and even though purging is terrible for our body.... thank goodness for it sometimes too. lol
SvarSletthats exciting you get to see your boyfriend!! yay!